Sunday, November 28, 2004

Christmas Wish List 2004

Rice cooker Flat panel computer monitor Bridget Jones Edge of reason soundtrack Old Crow Medicine Show cds Fabric (jewel or earth tone solids, tapestry type richer brocades, or large amounts of plain brown, tan or black cotton) Storage/organizing type things (stuff to help me transport my things down to Indy) Big decorative type lounging pillows (body pillows) Body pillow cover Adobe Photoshop or similar photo editing software Good brown or black casual shoes (comfortable but stylish) A 60 minute back massage with Ann A standing floor lamp A bunch of sticky tack, command hooks and command poster strips more may be added/subtracted in the coming days oh and I don't expect to get even half this stuff, just a list :)

Sunday (The day before my birthday)

okay not actually the day before my birthday, but its a song title by Moby and I am currently listening to it. I have found that I enjoy listening to my entire library by shuffle mode. I have so much music that I often don't even recognize the song, and sometimes my computer is more in the Christmas spirit than I am, but it is a nice way to get some variety. Oh and everyone should wish Crystal a happy birthday today, she is 21! But what I was really gonna post about is the books I read this week. Not as many as I thought I would, but still closer to the number I used to read every week in high school than I have been doing in college: Tuesdays with Morrie A very short book, but it has a lot of good things to say about death and life and how to approach both. It is a compilation of a several conversations a student had with his old college professor (dying of Lou Gerig's disease) in the last months of his life. Although it borders on the sentimental and sometimes crosses over it was a really good book to read and realize how much happiness and joy are dependent on one's attitude instead of circumstances. It was also very fitting considering the theme of death already present in the past week. Snow Crash Both my brothers have repeatedly recommended this book to me, so I finally decided to give it a go. I had read Diamond Age by the same author while in London this summer so the style of the book was not completely unexpected. However I liked this book a lot more, a good read all around. It is a sci-fi type book set in the near future of a different but recognizable United States. Although in this book the government has dissolved into different small groups and Burbclaves all with their different allegiances, rules, characteristics, etc. The main character is Hiro Protagonist (yes you read that right, just one more reason to love this book) and he is a hacker. The book weaves in themes of computer programming, religion, myth and language. Angels & Demons This is a book by Dan Brown that resulted in me sleeping for only 2 hours Friday night, but I should have known that considering the highly suspenseful nature of DaVinci's Code which I had read previously. This book also features the Harvard sybologist Robert Langdon, however it takes place in an earlier adventure before DaVinci's Code. The book over all was interesting and exciting in a very similar way to DVC, but I found it lacking some of the depth that the second book had. It was interesting though the extreme similarities in how the book was laid out and written, almost formulaic actually. It deals with the Iluminati society and its ancient war against the Catholic church, this time with a strong focus on Italian architecture and the secrets of Vatican city. I guess I would say it was overall an enjoyable read, but not especially high quality. Those were the only three books I read for pleasure. I also read Waiting for Snow in Havana, although I have yet to complete it. That book has turned out less interesting than I originally thought it would. Plus it seems to go on forever, not a good characteristic of a novel. Okay I wasn't gonna write about this and really don't feel an obligation to comment unless you have something to say, but I have been noticing that no one has commented in over 2 weeks....

Saturday, November 27, 2004

bourgeois post-thanksgiving update

I do believe this may be a record, exactly one week since my last post. Now if you actually read my last post you would probably have an idea for the reason behind that. While I did have some internet excess in PA it was on relatives computers and therefore both infrequent, limited in time, and slower than what I am accustomed too. I am going to have severe withdraw when I know longer have my lovely T1 connection post-college....sigh. So this week. It was a turbulent one, relaxing, sad, quick, intense, drawn-out and very family oriented. Monday morning Mom, Dad, Jonathan and I drove into PA, after first raiding the public library for reading material. I was determined to use my free-time this week to catch up on all those books I always want to read but never have time for. However this also meant we left closer to 10am and arrived in Lancaster around 9pm. Leaving that late makes the drive feel so much longer! I enjoy the 6am departure time a lot more. We stayed all week at Dave (my mom's brother) and Jane's house. They have hosted our family numerous times and are really wonderful hosts. They built a new house in the past few years and pretty much made the whole basement into guest bedrooms and such. It was great having their house to come back to every day. So then starting Tuesday we picked up Grammy from Landis Homes and went to Eldon and Alicia (my dad's brother and sister-in-law)for lunch (yummy as always). This meant I got to see their whole family again, plus Barb and Doug Miller(my dad's sister and husband who are missionaries in Malawi). All of whom I hadn't seen in quite some time. It was really disappointing to not get to see the Miller cousins (they stayed behind in Malawi), but we got to see some pictures and so forth which was good. So then after much family hanging out time, we went back to Landis Homes for Pappy's viewing. I wasn't entirely comfortable with seeing Pappy's body in his coffin there in the chapel, but then I guess death is not something that is ever comfortable for the living. And as Millie put it "that is not my grandpa". Death separates whatever spirit that makes us who we are from our bodies, and so it was odd to feel so much emotion just from viewing what is essentially an empty shell. The most moving moment was when the family gathered together in front of the coffin and Grammy saw the body for the first time. I guess sometimes I forget that old age and previously declining health don't dim the difficult task of saying good-bye to the person who has been your partner for more than 60 years. The rest of the viewing was interesting in the shear number of people who would shake my hand and give me their sympathies when 7 out of 10 times I had no clue who they were. It was also interesting sitting there next to Jonathan, both of us rather liberal in appearance (I did where a skirt, but still my shortish hair, and Jonathan's longish hair added to our general out-of placeness) shaking hand after hand of obviously conservatively dressed people. It did give me a chance though to brush up my Nafziger/Kennel family backgrounds. I don't know that side nearly as well as the Hess side, but actually considering on the Hess side I really only know my own circle of first cousins and aunts and uncles, I don't know either side that well. The viewing lasted until after 9pm (it was supposed to go from 6-8), we were all pretty exhausted. The following day was the funeral. The ceremony itself was not really moving for me, or particularly connecting for me. I didn't know any of the preachers, or the church, or most of the people who attended. However some moving moments were Dad sharing his highly eloquent eulogy of sorts of his father at the sharing time, watching Eldon and my Dad cry more tears than I think I have ever seen them shed and also hearing what my brother, Tim wrote about his memories of Pappy (very indicative of my own). I think the most emotional part for me by far was seeing the emotional impact of Pappy's death on others around me. Often when I cried it was not out of my own grief, but more a collective grief being expressed by those close to me and a sense of the certainty of time and death. Life can be so fleeting, even though I never knew Pappy as a young man, he had a full and rich life and impacted so many people around me. I will never know that man, but I grieved for the loss others around me were experiencing. Thursday then was the big turkey day and our first family get-together without Pappy. For me it was clear how much Pappy's decline since his stroke and impacted this holiday, because while it was different to not have his presence with us around the table, in someways he had been gone for almost 2 years. We spent almost the entire day at the Stauffer's house (friends of Eldon and Alica), an amazing giving couple, who hosted the whole Nafziger family and showed me a glowing example of what true hospitality is. I don't think any of us really lifted a finger then entire day. Then it was Friday. Which ended up going very differently than originally planned. My Grandma Hess (my mom's mom) suffered an irregular heartbeat early in the morning and was taken by ambulance to the hospital. It was pretty scary for a while, because all of a sudden it felt that all my grandparents were declining so quickly. It had been a bit shocking to see Grandma earlier in the week and realize how much older she has gotten in the past 4 years. I think she is probably a good inch shorter and moves so much slower than previously. She has always been the grandparent I have felt closest too and so seeing her so fragile was very difficult. Fortunately after some tests the heartbeat appeared to unconnected to any blockage problems which seemed like good news and she should be back home by monday with some new medication. Visiting her in the hospital was also so striking. Considering I have never seen her wear anything other than a conservative dress, to see her looking so small in her hospital gown and just old, was really hard. I don't know how my parents have been able to deal with seeing their parents age and pass on, I hope I don't have to deal with that for many many years. So well that brings us almost up to date. Oh two things of note are that I inherited a TV and vcr from Pappy, which will probably be shared between Jonathan, Tim and I (basically who ever needs it). Although Jonathan and I did a pretty big sacrifice by riding back from PA with the monstrous thing between us in the back seat of the car. Also I received Tim's birthday present from London via Mom and Dad. It is a snazzy new camera carrying case. A perfect fit and very handy, thanks Tim! Well I really need to go grab a shower and then start on all my catch-up work, so later all you bloggers out there.

Saturday, November 20, 2004

this week

As some of you all are finding out, my Pappy passed away last night at around 9pm. It was expected and a peaceful death according to my aunt and uncle who were with him at the time. However this does change a lot of plans, currently my parents are in London visiting with Tim and are going to return a day early. I will be picking them up tomorrow afternoon and then when Jonathan returns from the SOA trip we will all head out to PA for the week for the funeral. We will probably drive back next Saturday in time for the last week of classes. So I have been spending a lot of time making arrangements with Jonathan and mine professors for classes next week. Fortunately this is happening over thanksgiving, so we will only miss 3 days of classes instead of 5. I am also blessed with a lot of supportive friends and a wonderful church community, so that has been really wonderful. As for my actual reaction, I haven't really begun to process it beyond what I was already doing with the news of his declining health. I think it will sink in a lot more when I see both my immediate and extended family more. Also last evening I had two really good conversations with friends and went to sleep feeling more at peace and happy than I have for some time. In some ways the finality of Pappy's death has been easier to deal with than the news of his suffering and decline. Well I need to get back to my phone/emails and paper writing. I hope you all enjoy this last week before Thanksgiving!

Friday, November 19, 2004

there is a train going by the library lab

So today I called in sick to work and slept into noon. Yesterday evening I called in sick to class and small group. You think that would mean I would be feeling better, and I guess I am feeling somewhat better. The news from my parents about Pappy's condition isn't good. It seems pretty clear that he is going fast and probably will pass away in the next few days. I really hope my Dad will get to be with him before he does, but right now it doesn't look likely. This will also be changing my plans for next week somewhat. I will be going up to Chicago on Monday evening to pick up my parents, and then most likely we will leave Tuesday morning to drive into PA. That will mean that I will miss my Tuesday and Wednesday classes. But this could still change. Going into PA means that I will get to see relatives again, which is always good. I haven't seen Barb and Doug (my Dad's sister and husband) in quite sometime seeing as they are missionaries in Malawai. Unfortunately their 5 children won't be there, and Tim won't be flying back from London. So the only grandchildren will be Jonathan, Herman, Milly, possibly Ray and myself. In other news I just spent a good 2 and half hours working on Jewelry. I am making a pendant that I hope turns out good. I spent that last hour or so working on soldering the bezel to the rest of the piece. I have tried twice so far and almost all of it stuck to the piece except one small part. Grrr, this is silver too, so the more I solder the more firescale I will have to mess with. But other than that the piece is coming along nicely. I did cut myself when I was sawing, but that just means I have a cool snoopy bandaid! Also in case any of you are extremely bored you can go see my newly posted online resume. I hope I am not that boring in real life :)

Thursday, November 18, 2004

a crick in my back, but a few less weights on my shoulders

I did it folks! The 8 pager and 12 paper (or as they finished the 8.5 and 12.5) are now complete and quickly fading into the "oh look that's a paper I wrote a while back" section of my mind. Overall I felt pretty good about both of them, although the 8 pager is a better written piece. The 12 was more interesting but as is often the case more scattered and less tied together. However I don't really feel that much more relaxed, maybe its the 2 hours of sleep I got (more because of Record than papers), or the cooking show Meryl and I are doing live on GC Journal tonight, maybe its the issues with my grandpa and his rapid decline, maybe its the 3 page paper that I have yet to write for next Tuesday. Whatever it is I wish it would go away and let me enjoy my slight increase in free time.

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

radio perfection in the lounge

working on page 7 of the 12 pager due tomorrow despite the total absence of the sun today in Indiana I think I can see a glimpse of it or that may just be the fluorescent lighting I haven't gone outside yet today, or took a shower, but hey that's all a part of the writing a paper process that I have begun to reflect Here is my top secret guaranteed paper writing plan: -first actually do your research before the day before its due, use notecards or lined notebook paper whatever works for you, just make sure you have more prepared than a big stack of books -find a place with little distractions, I would recommend the lab in the connector, with only 3 terminals it can sometimes be hard to find a space, but once you do you are guaranteed very few distractions -as for apparel I suggest comfy pants with high stretchablity and warmth levels, you will be sitting for several hours so nothing too tight that will become uncomfortable or possibly reduce circulation. Also I recommend a comfy sweatshirt, because the lab can be drafty and the last thing you want is cold to make it hard to concentrate -oh and a nice pair of slippers helps or nice thick socks -okay so you have your notes and are dressed, now you need a nice mug for either tea or cold water, I don't recommend much other than that because high levels of sugar or caffeine can produce big swings in mood and irritability -another big plus is headphones, you can use these to listen to internet radio sources such as launchcast or BBC, there are a lot of options, although I like launchcast because you can customize it with your own music preferences -and last but not least allow yourself some time, 12 pagers will probably take a good day, or more, while 8 pagers can be done in a very long evening Okay so now back to the paper :)

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

a lovely lull, in which to savor the exceptions

Right now I am experiencing one of those small moments of grace, where despite all the demands being made on you, the deadlines not being met, the fact that you just slept through class, or the presentation you have in 5 hours, all cannot keep you from feeling warm and fuzzy. So this little note is my tribute to the exceptions of the week. I am going to go make tea!

headphones at 2am mean that meryl has beaten me to bed

Despite the late nature of the hour and the tiredness that seems a rather permanent part of my psyche, I am more at rest right now than I have been for several days. I just wrote the final page of my research paper due tomorrow. Bringing down my total yet to complete to a manageable 15. Today I turned in my application for Peace House, I am getting really excited about that opportunity, I hope things work out well for it too happen. In jewelry today I experienced some frustrations with too small of drill bits. I am working on a pendant piece that I making with a large green stone. I really hope it ends of looking good! I really love the stone, I think its a jasper and has a lot of variation on it. Well that's about all for now, so I head to bed with a slim margin of hope for the week!

Sunday, November 14, 2004

Me in my Hour After/Renassance garb. The white chemise and the blue overskirt were both purchased at a Ren fair, and I sewed the gold overskirt during fall break. Posted by Hello

Saturday, November 13, 2004

"I don't want no part of this crazy love"

Paul Simon rocks my world! Saturday mornings in the dorm are always nice. Those hours between 10 and twelve when your roommate is still asleep but the morning light, blue and pale, is lighting the room. You are still in your pajamas and comfy, knowing that all the work you need to do won't kick in until after you get back from lunch. Anyways so an update on the papers would be that I finished up two 3 pagers for Thursday. And low and behold received two extensions for the tuesday ones. So as it stands I have the 8 due Tues and the presentation, and then the 3 and the 12 due Thursday. I have all the research done for the 12, but will probably not start writing it until after my presentation on Tuesday night. We only have 2 more issues of the Record left!!!!! But I get to do news for both of them, which means I'll be staying late both times.............sigh. On Thursday I saw the Missing a movie about an American man searching for his son who disappeared in the turmoil after the coupe that overthrew the Allende socialist government in Chile. An excellent movie, but it makes it even harder to think positively about my government or about humans in general. How can they be so cruel, so murderous, so ugh. Friday was a long day, I spent around 7 hours in the car and around 4 of those driving in Chicago mind you. But Meryl came along so that was good. My parents gave us some money for toll and dinner, so we stopped by Siam Thai (that place is really hard to find, this was the second time that it took me around half an hour to find the place) and had an amazing meal. Then I went with the girls and Thushan to see the Complete Works of Shakespeare Abridged. Very funny good show, but pretty much identical to the version I saw a video of, so I sort of knew what was gonna happen. Oh and I successfully predicted the actor nature of a guy who sat in front of us, so that was cool. After arriving back I pretty much collapsed in exhaustion. And that's all folks.

updates past sleep time

Well its been a while since I last posted, and that's partially due to the fact that blogging seemed like to obvious a form of procrastination. While I was pretty productive this week, I also did more subtle forms of procrastination. Essentially the last 24 hours or so have really sucked, and pretty much the last week hasn't been great. I would go into it, but is a terribly long story to tell properly and would include sharing lots of things that I have yet to completely feel comfortable doing so. Suffice to say, current happiness-low, current pain level-high, current self esteem-low, current work load-high, current hope levels-low, current exhaustion-high. I don't think thanksgiving can come quite quick enough. I swear I was gonna just do an overview of the week, but right now, don't really care too.

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

exploring the new ways that church can absorb all your time

Well I don't know if I have blogged much about this yet, but this fall I have managed to get myself involved with my church at levels I had previously not experienced. The main one being my participating on the Pastoral Review team, which has meant attending various meetings, taking notes, writing up notes and doing a few interviews. Another is getting involved with Advent Worship planning, which again is mostly one meeting, and will involve me helping to design and create the visual aid for the season, which is really exciting because Advent is by far my most favorite time of year. Oh and then 2 weeks ago, my small group planned worship and I helped out with worship leading (although I got to do the easiest parts of the morning and it called for minimal prep time). And most recently I agreed to speak in church this coming sunday during second hour. Tim Foley will be speaking in first hour about N. Ireland and because I was there this summer they thought it would be nice for me to share during second hour (when he won't be there). So I have that to think about, oh and I still need to complete 3 interviews for the first mentioned involvement by tomorrow morning and attend a 2 hour meeting, which will follow my hour long meeting at Assembly at 9am tomorrow. So yeah, church is great, but I guess well I just have never before had it be a part of my life that added stress before, very new concept. But hey I am learning a lot about church and what it means to be a part of it that I would have never figured out otherwise. Okay now for general update about life since Sunday. -discovered that studying in the lounge is so much more productive than reading in my room (I got a good 5 hours of research done yesterday, and finished a reading and question assignment) -going to bed at 11, makes waking up at 7:30am at least marginally easier -I keep alternating between feeling hopeful that all the demands on my life will be met and feeling like I may as well give up now. But I have found reminding myself that in a year almost all of this won't matter is at least somewhat reassuring. (oh as side note I did way better than expected on my last ethics and morality test, considering that I studied for only 2 hours with my study group, however I did get a good 6 hours of sleep, maybe sleep is the answer to all my problems!) Okay now that I have filled up my allotted 20 minute break from demands, I must return to them..........

Sunday, November 07, 2004

observing the large brick wall in my immediate future

Okay here is the run down on the next two weeks and the reasons I will not be happy/sleeping/normal for the next little while: Thursday Nov 11 3-4 page History and Faith Paper 3-5 page House of Spirits Response paper Tuesday Nov 16 12-15 page Integrative Paper 8-10 page Research Paper 3-4 page Review of Secondary Literature 10-15 minute Presentation Total for the next 9 days: 29-38 pages So goodbye dear somewhat sane world, welcome to my craziness...........sigh

quitin' time

These past few days have not exactly been great ones for me, just pretty much a low right now. I hate not being a happy cheerful person, I mean I am sometimes. But others (like right now) I just can't seem to get a good outlook on the world. Part of the problem is that whenever I am feeling low I also feel guilty for not being happy and content with all the amazing blessings I have. Why do I waste my time being melancholy when I have so many opportunities and resources and options for me life? Gosh darn it and why do I write depressed blogs, not good Abby! Okay anyways I will now attempt to be at least somewhat interesting and less down. Today I got about 3 hours of reading for my term paper due in a week out of the way. The paper deals with issues of pre-marital sex within Christian ethics. Actually a pretty fascinating topic, so far I found two interesting books that make strong cases for not condemning it, which I actually found rather surprising. Mainly because growing up Mennonite I received a clear sense of sex as only appropriate within marriage. Although in reading some of the arguments it has caused me to bring up some of my own reasons for why I think pre-marital sex is wrong. Fascinating for me, considering I often end up being on more of the side arguing why it is okay in certain situations. It should be a fun paper to write. Speaking of sex though I am gonna go listen to Keith Graber Miller preach tomorrow morning at College Mennonite Church on sexuality. Should be quite interesting! Oh and I went to the barn dance tonight. It was fun, but very much a nostalgic sort of thing. Barn dance was so much fun in high school, such a big deal, and it still is, but not the same.....sigh. I guess all good things must end. Oh but my moment of hope was when as we were riding along on the hay ride. I was laying there feeling sort of blue and looking up at a gorgeous field of stars and then I saw a really long shooting star that was just beautiful. I always seem to be the one who just misses seeing it, but not this time. So with that moment, I will leave my blog for the night. Rest well.

Saturday, November 06, 2004

lost and found in Chicago

Today I went to see the SOFA Chicago 2004 exhibit. It was really incredible, I think I really enjoy 3d art more than 2d. Everything from jewelry to large glass, ceramic, wood sculptures. I also got to watch a glass blowing demonstration for a little bit, amazing craft! Also the weather was beautiful, sunny and breezy with high thin clouds in a blue sky. Chicago is a beautiful city. I also collected a bunch of those free postcards that are often made of certain exhibitions, so now I have lots of new cool stuff for our door. I really enjoyed looking at the jewelry and metalwork now that I have just a little bit better of an idea how much work and careful technique goes into forming each piece. Although a lot of the work there was using much more precious materials than I would ever use. I think the cheapest thing in the entire place was 300 dollars and I saw things that were as much as 20-30,000 grand! So then the second part of the day was a misunderstanding about time zones that lead to us not being able to find Becca for almost an hour. Judy (the art teacher) and I were getting pretty worried and the bus has been gone for almost half an hour when finally we found her and everything turned out okay. Plus I got to take a (very brief) cab ride through Chicago and see Judy's house, meet her husband and talk to her about cool art things. So over all, Becca was okay and life is good. Oh and I got a good 2 hour nap on the train, which is why I am still functional at this hour. So goodnight all!

Friday, November 05, 2004

real time blitherings

Music: "You will be my ain true love" Alison Krauss Cold Mountain Soundtrack hmmm well actually I think this is one of the first times since I have told people about this blog that I sort of wish no one would read this. Because if I was really honest with myself right now, what I want really badly isn't a good grade on my exam, or to finish my term papers, or to be a good friend, or go do exciting things, or go to Peace House, but instead I want to have a close connection with a male. Maybe its that time of the month, maybe its the weather, maybe its the sad love ballad I am listening too, maybe its hormones, maybe its cause I am tired and just really want a big hug. I don't know, but I really am oh so very tired of wanting what I don't have. Why oh why is contentment always too much to ask?

Thursday, November 04, 2004

frustrated and not actually that much by the election

okay yes, I am really disappointed about the whole thing, not only the presidency but now the legislative, executive and possibly the judicial branches of this government will all be represented by conservatives! oh and I am really saddened by the passing of 11 state banning of gay marriages fine, so yes some of the frustration is that, but a bunch is just the rest of life right now. It seems like whenever I get one part of life going well another slips and then when catching up on that I loose track of another! I am so tired and in need of a break, a break from it all and I am discovering that although I haven't really had a problem with this earlier, I really do need to become more intimate with the word "no". Such a nice thing, I need to use it more often. But the problem with that is that when that word comes into play so does a word called "guilt" which I seem to have a lot of anyways. Arrrgggg, I have an exam tomorrow at 9:30 (directly after the 8am). I so could have used this evening to study or do reading for my classes, but no I spent another 5 hours working for the Record. Which I do really enjoy, but I just feel really trapped in it sometimes and frustrated that some lay-out staff come in only for one page and so forth, but have the same job title as I do (okay yes really nit-picky and not really anything to be justifiably upset about). Sometimes I just get really frustrated at demands made on my life by myself and others and then I get frustrated that I don't demand other standards of myself. Now enough venting, hmmmm something positive about the day: Oh I got my license renewed and I actually really like my picture and AndyG randomly complimented me on my hair, cool beans! And I had a really yummy lunch with dad at Trolley Cafe and I told him about Indy Peace House and he seemed positive!

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

please don't!

election night........sigh I can't hardly believe it, Bush won?????!!!!!!!!

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

Not related to rugball, just fun times in Hillary's room :) Posted by Hello

Yeah I braid my brother's hair, yes it looks good, you have a problem with that? :)  Posted by Hello

The cool hand print that Jonathan was awarded for his rugball efforts. Posted by Hello

Okay, okay I know I have spent enough time blabbering about rugball, but I couldn't resist a few more pictures. This picture is really representitive of some of the amazing games played this weekend. The great part is you can't even see the ball! Posted by Hello

In another update on my ring (which is really close to finally being done!) this is after I have filed and polished for many hours in an attempt to clean off firescale. Then when it was all shiny and pretty I soaked it in liver of sulphur for a while in order to blacken the lower portions of the ring and bring out the design. The next and final step will be to carefully clean the raised areas of the ring before giving a final polish. Posted by Hello

Monday, November 01, 2004

news from abby's world

While I have been posting pretty regularly, I haven't posted about anything important for quite some time, so here's the deal. I am currently pretty seriously considering participating in Indianapolis Peace House next semester. It is a Plowshares program that gets students from all three colleges (Goshen, Earlham, and Manchester) together to take some peace and justice courses and participate in an internship while living together in a big house in downtown Indy. For quite some time now I have been feeling really antsy in college and have been chaffing at the bit to get it over with (despite how much I have been enjoying my classes this fall). The program would be completed by May term and I can use all my Goshen scholarships towards its cost, which is the same as a semester at Goshen. I also have checked with John D. (my advisor) and he says I should still be able to finish up all my required credits spring of my senior year. I talked to my RD, and he thinks that it would work for Meryl to take over RL until I return for May term. I feel like Indy would be the perfect distance away, not too far, but not too close. In other words you all wouldn't have any excuses not to come visit me:) However another big part is that I haven't had a chance to talk to my parents about this yet, and while I plan on doing that I don't think they will raise any large objections. So this all has me quite excited and a lot more happy at the prospect of next semester and all it will hold. I have yet to actually finish writing up my application, however Dean said there were still spots open, so I think I'll be okay. Also I found out on Sunday that Anna Yoder is participating too, which makes me happy. It will be nice to know at least one person in the house. I am also really excited about that aspect of the program and getting to live in a communal house, which isn't something I have gotten to do yet in college. So there that is the update on my life as of now. As for today its self, it was rainy and blah and harder than ever to get up out of bed. But once I actually got through that torture, the day turned out okay! As a side note, remember to vote tomorrow! speaking of which, I should probably figure out when I am gonna go do that :)